Reflections on Turning 54 and Completing the 3rd Cycle of 18.

Tommy Rosen
5 min readJun 1, 2021


Today, I turn 54 years old. It is the completion of my third cycle of 18 years. There is much we can learn by examining our lives in terms of the cycles of time. The 18 year cycle reflects major changes in the experience of being in a body and how we show up in the world.

Take a brief walk with me through the 3 cycles of 18 I have had so far. As you read on, reflect back on your own life and see what realizations come.

First Cycle: 0–17
By the time I was 18, I had grown physically into a young man. I had had a childhood replete with joys and challenges. I had primary relationships with parents and siblings, family members and friends.

I had been to kindergarden, elementary school, middle school and high school. I had learned many things and was now preparing to go to college.

Sports were everything to me as a kid. EVERYTHING. I played sports, watched every sport on TV and dreamed of being a professional baseball player.

Emotionally, I understood anxiety, anger and sadness along with happiness, excitement, joy and love.

By 16, I was using cannabis almost daily, putting it to work for me. I had experienced psychedelics and realized there was something vast going on that I was interested in. I had found the Grateful Dead and, by 18 years of age, it had become the spiritual center of my life.

I had sex for the first time, and that became…well…important.

Second Cycle: 18–35
Between 18 and 35 years of age, I would develop in some very significant ways.

Despite the fact that I was in full swing with the Grateful Dead and all its trappings, I would somehow complete college.

Through college, I had my first serious romantic relationships and those also became…well…important. Later in my 20’s and early 30’s, I would begin to have some difficulty in this department. My patterns started to play out. There was love and connection, but there was also codependency and pain. For me, codependent relationships can be generally characterized as death defying. That said, I learned so much from all relationships, even the most painful ones.



Tommy Rosen

Yoga Teacher, Author, Lifestyle Engineer, Addicton Recovery Expert